LoveGame - Lady Gaga

Helloooo! :)
It takes so long time, I haven't updating mu blog.
Well, it's so good that I can share you my stories.

Let me say, welcome SENIOR!!
yeah, finally :)
I'm becoming senior, not so happy at all, the future! Still, this part makes me being stoned.
Yeah, this is the starting.

Saya bingung, cukup bingung untuk mengutarakan ini semua. Semua yang ada kini terasa mulai menghilang perlahan-lahan. Lelaki yang pernah menyakiti saya kini kembali lagi kepada saya. Saya hanya bisa tersenyum, lega. Saya sakit setiap kali saya ingat betapa kejamnya dia dan betapa seringnya dia menyakiti saya.
Saya hanya bisa berkata, 'semuanya pasti terbalas' namun saya tidak mau itu terjadi. Saya tidak mau dia sakit. Saya sudah cukup merasakan sakitnya, walaupun memang ini membuat saya terkesan mendramatisir keadaan. Saya tidak mau jatuh lagi, saya tidak mau sakit lagi. Saya ingin bahagia, saya ingin hidup tenang dan senang. Dia, tanpa dirinya saya tidak dapat bernafas, tanpa dirinya pun saya kehilangan satu sisi diri saya.
Semuanya, semua yang kita lalui bersama merupakam memori indah yang tak mungkin terlupakan dengan mudahnya. Still, he's my hero :)

Label: LOVE LIFE

tell me one thing that you needed right now!

mine? its kinda simple, what i need what i want is his attention only. one year two months has been passed, we through it together. right or wrong, sickness or happiness.
but now, i've nothing. through it alone, without someone stand by me. i decided to leave it behind but sometimes i regret it, 'i still need him'
that's it. and now for sure, he didn't want to reply my text, he didn't want to answer my phone and he turning her cellphone off. okay, i'm a strong girl, my patience is my pray. the only thing i can standing in is my patience, i beg my patience to be more patient.
useful and helpful, my patience taking me calm and relief. but my alterego can't take it anymore, i want him feelin' it. how much i try to keep my patience. how hard i try to stand up for YOU?
and how often you breaking my heart into pieces?
and how many regreting words i got from you? and how easy i accept your appology?

I'm so sorry, DEAR! for now on, i'm not as weak as yesterday and i'm not as pathetic as yesterday!
I can start my new life without you, dear.
I can live my life without you, dear.
And I can enjoy my life without you, dear.
so thank you and you'll regret it!

Label: LOVE LIFE

Heloooooo :)

Saya berusaha mencerna semua yang ada adalam otak saya saat ini. semuanya berbalik dan semuanya menyakitkan. saya hanya dapat menelan ludah untuk dapat merasakan betapa sakitnya ini. hati saya, sakit. sakit sekali.
saya tidak tahu mengapa saya merasakan sakit seperti ini, sakit seperti kehilangan seseorang yang amat berarti bagi saya. saya hanya dapt diam, merenungi dan nantinya menangis.
sayang tidah banyak fikir, saya hanya tersenyum, ternyata ini akhir dari semuanya.
kenangan manis hilang begitu saja, tidak dapat dibendung lagi rasa sakit ini.
dia mencerca saya, saya tidak peduli. bukan ini yang saya mau, bukan dia yang saya mau.
saya hanya mau dia yang dahulu, dia yang tidak dengan gampangnya menyakiti hati saya. dia yang selalu membuat saya senang dan tersenyum. dia yang sayang saya. saya terlalu capek utuk berfikir, saya terlalu capek untuk menangis.

A

Label: LOVE LIFE

Helloooo world!

current mood : great :D
current song : I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

HAHAHAHA! See that? I remember the I'm Yours lyrics. Why? Last night went so hard, like every single day, me and him fought! jeez, then as you know or everybody know, the result used to be broke up. Puh-leaseee! For the many many and many times. Maybe the PUTUS-NYAMBUNG is the right way to describe it.

Today, I'm watching REVA's (the man whom I'm talking about) band practicing for the upcoming band audition for MPK (Malam Pergelaran Kesenian - is it right? heee).
Well, they play so damn good! I'm supporting them! Not only because its Reva's but from their skill. Two thumbs up and more. They not like an ordinary band who sang the hardcore genre. They play smooth! Actually, it's jazz and I ♥ jazz.

For now, maybe my relationship status is 'complicated' but I'm guarantee that I still stick onto one gentlemen. I'm a lil' bit extraordinary in this thing! HAHAHA


♥
ANIES

Label: LOVE LIFE

Hello blogger! hihi ;)
it's almost one month that I didn't writting blog. By the way, let me share my whole stories (2 days lately)!

* current mood : up and down up and down up and down
* current song : TERUSKANLAH - Agnes Monica

That was what I want to share!
' pernahkah kau bicara? Tapi tak didengar.. ' yaaa etc, didn't remember the whole lyrics!
Yeaaah, I ♥ that song so much. It's like describing my feelings 'up and down' rite now!
D'you know how its comes? Not sure, but surely this 2 days lately, I WAS CRIED LIKE A BABY! poor me, my spoiled-brat-acted has comes then he walk away from me!
I don't know why he was so mean? Let me cried out loud like a toodler!
I make it a lil bit confused, the point is ' I MISS HIM SO MUCH '
I want to meet him
I want to hug him
I want to kiss him

I'm crying, begging for his kindness, but he didn't even heard me!

I want him to visits me, but he wont!

Still patient still patient. But my patience and my brain did'nt work in the same way. I lost my patience then I screamed and cried like a SPOILED-PRINCESS!
But he didn't care. He stick in his way.

It's so hurting me. For many times, he gimme his promises but he didn't do the promises he made.

I'm hurt. I'm pain.

And I said the effin' word.
'I want you break up with me' with tears and screamed. Firstly he aggreed, he told me that he doesn't know what must he do for me. He tired with my attitude who always made him angry.

I'm so glad he agree with mine, but my other side is CRYING! blahhh I hate this situations. That night, my not yet ex, called me. He asked me about my 'breaking up thingy'. I replied, 'sure, I'm serious'. His sounds dissaticfied, he asked me, 'I dont want to broke up with you. We're still going out and went steady'

OK! I agree, besides, I still loved him so much! Then my sleep went so relief. But my sister said that in the morning, my face looked so tired. My sister never sees me like that, she told me that she didn't want to waking me up wether I asked her.

Then the next day, the mess comes again. Alright, alright. Pass! I already forgive him. It's enough for me to crying crying and crying. But it can't stopped my tears fell down. I cried and I screamed. It means, the-breaking-up-thingy comes again. I said that effin words twice. Alright! But he didn't agree this time, he said that 'he still in love with me'

for many times, i can not resist his charm!

I love you, yesterday, today, tommorow and forever.


♥
ANIES

Label: LOVE LIFE