LoveGame - Lady Gaga

Helloooo! :)
It takes so long time, I haven't updating mu blog.
Well, it's so good that I can share you my stories.

Let me say, welcome SENIOR!!
yeah, finally :)
I'm becoming senior, not so happy at all, the future! Still, this part makes me being stoned.
Yeah, this is the starting.

Saya bingung, cukup bingung untuk mengutarakan ini semua. Semua yang ada kini terasa mulai menghilang perlahan-lahan. Lelaki yang pernah menyakiti saya kini kembali lagi kepada saya. Saya hanya bisa tersenyum, lega. Saya sakit setiap kali saya ingat betapa kejamnya dia dan betapa seringnya dia menyakiti saya.
Saya hanya bisa berkata, 'semuanya pasti terbalas' namun saya tidak mau itu terjadi. Saya tidak mau dia sakit. Saya sudah cukup merasakan sakitnya, walaupun memang ini membuat saya terkesan mendramatisir keadaan. Saya tidak mau jatuh lagi, saya tidak mau sakit lagi. Saya ingin bahagia, saya ingin hidup tenang dan senang. Dia, tanpa dirinya saya tidak dapat bernafas, tanpa dirinya pun saya kehilangan satu sisi diri saya.
Semuanya, semua yang kita lalui bersama merupakam memori indah yang tak mungkin terlupakan dengan mudahnya. Still, he's my hero :)

Label: LOVE LIFE

tell me one thing that you needed right now!

mine? its kinda simple, what i need what i want is his attention only. one year two months has been passed, we through it together. right or wrong, sickness or happiness.
but now, i've nothing. through it alone, without someone stand by me. i decided to leave it behind but sometimes i regret it, 'i still need him'
that's it. and now for sure, he didn't want to reply my text, he didn't want to answer my phone and he turning her cellphone off. okay, i'm a strong girl, my patience is my pray. the only thing i can standing in is my patience, i beg my patience to be more patient.
useful and helpful, my patience taking me calm and relief. but my alterego can't take it anymore, i want him feelin' it. how much i try to keep my patience. how hard i try to stand up for YOU?
and how often you breaking my heart into pieces?
and how many regreting words i got from you? and how easy i accept your appology?

I'm so sorry, DEAR! for now on, i'm not as weak as yesterday and i'm not as pathetic as yesterday!
I can start my new life without you, dear.
I can live my life without you, dear.
And I can enjoy my life without you, dear.
so thank you and you'll regret it!

Label: LOVE LIFE

Heloooooo :)

Saya berusaha mencerna semua yang ada adalam otak saya saat ini. semuanya berbalik dan semuanya menyakitkan. saya hanya dapat menelan ludah untuk dapat merasakan betapa sakitnya ini. hati saya, sakit. sakit sekali.
saya tidak tahu mengapa saya merasakan sakit seperti ini, sakit seperti kehilangan seseorang yang amat berarti bagi saya. saya hanya dapt diam, merenungi dan nantinya menangis.
sayang tidah banyak fikir, saya hanya tersenyum, ternyata ini akhir dari semuanya.
kenangan manis hilang begitu saja, tidak dapat dibendung lagi rasa sakit ini.
dia mencerca saya, saya tidak peduli. bukan ini yang saya mau, bukan dia yang saya mau.
saya hanya mau dia yang dahulu, dia yang tidak dengan gampangnya menyakiti hati saya. dia yang selalu membuat saya senang dan tersenyum. dia yang sayang saya. saya terlalu capek utuk berfikir, saya terlalu capek untuk menangis.

A

Label: LOVE LIFE

Hello blogger! ;)

it's 18.15 and i'm still in my car back off to home! Well my current moods is fantastic and loved it! :)
today i've a great time together with reva, kemal, aussie nd tami. we went to one of factory outlet nd bought some outfits for our friend, anshar. Tommorow he'll turning 17th nd they ( reva, kemal nd tami ) as his closest friends wants to make him happy in his born day. Maybe for the other boy, turning 17th is like ordinary day. But it's kinda different for our friend, anshar. He's such a good friend and love to make us happy. So the 'three musketters' decided to make a little surprise party for anshar. Hopes he will love it.

Well, it's raining outside. Finally it's rain. Light rain, whatevs. Everyday i wish that today would be great when i see rain. But the sky doesn't even seems dark nd cloudy. It's sunny everyday!

Now my world seems perfect. I had super georgeous boyfriend who always loved me. Perfect besties nd also families.
But it don't make me live high, just thinking. My days wont be perfect w/out their. Nd i appreciate it they loved me like i do!

Nd for the upcoming 1 year 2 months wif reva, i'm gonna make some present for him. But it can't finish quickly.
Looking from my schedule, next week we'll get our last final exams in eleven grade. Nd i must focus on it!

Well, enough for tday! Thankies biatch!

A

Label: Random

Well, sudah cukup lama saya tidak menulis blog dan berbagi cerita :)

today's current mood's : FINE almost excited! :)

that guy filling my empty heart, from broken into blossom.
that guy standing by my side. cheering me up and smiling for me, only me.
that guy giving me hopes and wishes.
that guy making me happy.
that guy holding me tight.
that guy kissing me tender.
that guy loving me more than i thought.

the reason that I want to be his is simple. He loved me in anyway, everyday he gave me tons of hearts. He loved me like tommorow is our last day. And he loved me like he loved himself.

Whatever he is, how much he makes me feelings some pain, i love him. Only him :)

A