SMOOCHY KISSES!

this is the way how the volcanoes explodes!

2009-10-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

Long time no see you blog!
By the way just straight to the point. I dunno where should I go and I dunno who should I hug beside EPHA!
I know it is wrong to tell you bout everything. But I can't stand it alone, I should express my anger in somewhere that is really appreciate my anger.
Those effin' boy starting to make a mess wiff me. Sorry, I'm rude, but it's reality. Live with it.
I'm so sick of him, his attitude and everything.
How could a boy who act like an innocent! But he is-was the selfish boy ever!
The words that I can say now are I HATE HIM! I HATE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING!
I wish I never met him before. But it was too late, I met him and he became my boyfriend. I can take the easier way with breaking up wiff him. But I won't take a risk. I still have something wiff him! But he never appreciate me! He never sees me! :((

secret wishes

2009-06-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Helloooo! :)
It takes so long time, I haven't updating mu blog.
Well, it's so good that I can share you my stories.

Let me say, welcome SENIOR!!
yeah, finally :)
I'm becoming senior, not so happy at all, the future! Still, this part makes me being stoned.
Yeah, this is the starting.

Saya bingung, cukup bingung untuk mengutarakan ini semua. Semua yang ada kini terasa mulai menghilang perlahan-lahan. Lelaki yang pernah menyakiti saya kini kembali lagi kepada saya. Saya hanya bisa tersenyum, lega. Saya sakit setiap kali saya ingat betapa kejamnya dia dan betapa seringnya dia menyakiti saya.
Saya hanya bisa berkata, 'semuanya pasti terbalas' namun saya tidak mau itu terjadi. Saya tidak mau dia sakit. Saya sudah cukup merasakan sakitnya, walaupun memang ini membuat saya terkesan mendramatisir keadaan. Saya tidak mau jatuh lagi, saya tidak mau sakit lagi. Saya ingin bahagia, saya ingin hidup tenang dan senang. Dia, tanpa dirinya saya tidak dapat bernafas, tanpa dirinya pun saya kehilangan satu sisi diri saya.
Semuanya, semua yang kita lalui bersama merupakam memori indah yang tak mungkin terlupakan dengan mudahnya. Still, he's my hero :)

please, tell me the truth!

2009-06-10T23:31:00.001-07:00

tell me one thing that you needed right now!

mine? its kinda simple, what i need what i want is his attention only. one year two months has been passed, we through it together. right or wrong, sickness or happiness.
but now, i've nothing. through it alone, without someone stand by me. i decided to leave it behind but sometimes i regret it, 'i still need him'
that's it. and now for sure, he didn't want to reply my text, he didn't want to answer my phone and he turning her cellphone off. okay, i'm a strong girl, my patience is my pray. the only thing i can standing in is my patience, i beg my patience to be more patient.
useful and helpful, my patience taking me calm and relief. but my alterego can't take it anymore, i want him feelin' it. how much i try to keep my patience. how hard i try to stand up for YOU?
and how often you breaking my heart into pieces?
and how many regreting words i got from you? and how easy i accept your appology?

I'm so sorry, DEAR! for now on, i'm not as weak as yesterday and i'm not as pathetic as yesterday!
I can start my new life without you, dear.
I can live my life without you, dear.
And I can enjoy my life without you, dear.
so thank you and you'll regret it!

HURTS and PAINS

2009-06-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

Heloooooo :)

Saya berusaha mencerna semua yang ada adalam otak saya saat ini. semuanya berbalik dan semuanya menyakitkan. saya hanya dapat menelan ludah untuk dapat merasakan betapa sakitnya ini. hati saya, sakit. sakit sekali.
saya tidak tahu mengapa saya merasakan sakit seperti ini, sakit seperti kehilangan seseorang yang amat berarti bagi saya. saya hanya dapt diam, merenungi dan nantinya menangis.
sayang tidah banyak fikir, saya hanya tersenyum, ternyata ini akhir dari semuanya.
kenangan manis hilang begitu saja, tidak dapat dibendung lagi rasa sakit ini.
dia mencerca saya, saya tidak peduli. bukan ini yang saya mau, bukan dia yang saya mau.
saya hanya mau dia yang dahulu, dia yang tidak dengan gampangnya menyakiti hati saya. dia yang selalu membuat saya senang dan tersenyum. dia yang sayang saya. saya terlalu capek utuk berfikir, saya terlalu capek untuk menangis.

A

Today : almost perfect

2009-06-02T04:30:00.001-07:00

Hello blogger! ;)

it's 18.15 and i'm still in my car back off to home! Well my current moods is fantastic and loved it! :)
today i've a great time together with reva, kemal, aussie nd tami. we went to one of factory outlet nd bought some outfits for our friend, anshar. Tommorow he'll turning 17th nd they ( reva, kemal nd tami ) as his closest friends wants to make him happy in his born day. Maybe for the other boy, turning 17th is like ordinary day. But it's kinda different for our friend, anshar. He's such a good friend and love to make us happy. So the 'three musketters' decided to make a little surprise party for anshar. Hopes he will love it.

Well, it's raining outside. Finally it's rain. Light rain, whatevs. Everyday i wish that today would be great when i see rain. But the sky doesn't even seems dark nd cloudy. It's sunny everyday!

Now my world seems perfect. I had super georgeous boyfriend who always loved me. Perfect besties nd also families.
But it don't make me live high, just thinking. My days wont be perfect w/out their. Nd i appreciate it they loved me like i do!

Nd for the upcoming 1 year 2 months wif reva, i'm gonna make some present for him. But it can't finish quickly.
Looking from my schedule, next week we'll get our last final exams in eleven grade. Nd i must focus on it!

Well, enough for tday! Thankies biatch!

A

my guy my love

2009-06-01T01:43:00.000-07:00

Well, sudah cukup lama saya tidak menulis blog dan berbagi cerita :)

today's current mood's : FINE almost excited! :)

that guy filling my empty heart, from broken into blossom.
that guy standing by my side. cheering me up and smiling for me, only me.
that guy giving me hopes and wishes.
that guy making me happy.
that guy holding me tight.
that guy kissing me tender.
that guy loving me more than i thought.

the reason that I want to be his is simple. He loved me in anyway, everyday he gave me tons of hearts. He loved me like tommorow is our last day. And he loved me like he loved himself.

Whatever he is, how much he makes me feelings some pain, i love him. Only him :)

A

Teen Vogue Survey Reveals Teens' Views on 'Hooking Up'

2009-05-27T20:43:00.000-07:00

The results are in! In a survey last month, Teen Vogue asked readers what it really means to be "hooking up". While some responses seemed to reflect predictable teen behavior, there were, admittedly, a few that really shocked us. The survey, accounting for 2,287 responses, reveals that the average age for having a first kiss is 13 (fair enough), and that the average age of having sex for the first time is 15 (yikes!). Another shocker the survey suggests is that 22% of teens did not use protection the first time they had sex, and 23% never use protection. With stats like these, it's no wonder teen pregnancy is on the rise.

According to the survey, more than half of those who answered do not count oral sex as "sex," even though one can still contract an STD or STI this way.

The true meaning of "hooking up" remains a rather ambiguous term, but the survey shows that the general view has a lot to do with safety. "[Hooking up] is fine, as long as you're being safe," (as in practicing safe sex) was a common response to the open-ended question.

Read on for the full results!
Would you say most of your friends are dating?
Yes 57%
No 43%

Do your parents let you date?
Yes 82.7%
No 17.3%

If not, is there a certain age at which they will allow it?
13 6.2%
14 4%
15 11.4%
16 25.1%
17 12%
18+ 41.2%

Would you (or have you) ever gone behind their back to date someone or had a secret boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yes 60.8%
No 39.2%

At what age did you have your first kiss?
Avg 13

At what age did you first have sex?
Avg 15

Did you use protection the first time you had sex?
Yes 77.9%
No 22.1%

What counts as "hooking up"?
Kissing 79.3%
Touching 53.4%
Oral sex 46.2%
Sex 47.2%
Other 11.9%

How many people have you hooked up with?
1-3 60.7%
3-5 14.6%
5-7 8.7%
7-10 5.9%
10+ 10%

Where do you hook up? (Check all that apply)
School 25.5%
Home 41.2%
Friend's house 55.4%
Other 56.4%
*Recurring write-in for "Other" was "parties"

How often do you practice safe sex (use a condom or other means of birth control)?
Always 62.4%
Almost always 9.7%
Sometimes 4.9%
Never 23.0%

Does oral sex count as "sex"?
Yes 44.6%
No 55.4%

Do you perceive oral sex to be more acceptable/appropriate than sex?
Yes 33.8%
No 66.2%

Are you worried about getting an STI?
Yes 61.1%
No 38.9%

Have your parents talked to you about sex/hooking up?
Yes 63.6%
No 36.4%

How old were you when they had "the talk"?
12 and under 44.5%
13-15 42.7%
15-18 11.7%
19 and up 1.1%

If so, did your find their talk to be effective/useful?
Yes 57.6%
No 42.4%

Have you ever sent/posted partially clad/nude photos of yourself to a guy/girl?
Yes 25.1%
No 74.9%

If you don't have an exclusive partner, how many people do you think it's OK to hook up with at the same time?
2 74.6%
3 16.0%
4 2.1%
5+ 7.3%

Do you think there's a double standard in regards to hooking up when it comes to guys versus girls?
Yes 73.7%
No 26.3%

Talk Back: What's your general view on hooking up?
*Here are a few sample write-in responses from the survey:

"I think it's generally harmless, as long as you're safe, and you and your partner have the same feelings and expectations."

"It's one of the early processes before dating or a serious relationship."

"I think that the term 'hook up' is very unclear. To me it's just kissing, but to my friends I know it can mean different things."

"It just depends how far you take things...kissing is ok, but when it gets to the point of feeling uncomfortable, then it's not ok."

"Hooking up at a party or other group event always leads to trouble. The rate at which rumors fly around, especially in high school, is insane!"

"I think that when you're ready or feel you want to be more experienced, then you can do whatever, but only if you're ready. Don't do something because you're forced to and/or feel pressured to do so. Don't do something you'll regret because you'll never be able to take it back. And always be safe about things."

For those of you who didn't participate in the survey, what do you think about these findings? Sound off!

Also, read Teen Vogue's June/July issue feature, Modern Romance, by Suzanne D'Amato, for more of the scoop on where, when, and how teens these days are "hooking up".

QUOTES THAT I LOVED

2009-05-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

Manifest plainness, embrace simplicity, reduce selfishness, have few desires. --Lao-Tzu

Your heart says stay and battle the pain, but your mind says leave for all this isnt needed, broken into pieces for that one an only. But follow your heart because the heart can only take so much. --Jamila M. Allen

Had I but served my God with half the zeal I served my King, He would not in mine age have left me naked to mine enemies. --William Shakespeare

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. --Anonymous

Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love. --Anonymous

Me and him!

2009-05-12T03:33:00.001-07:00

Helloooo world!

current mood : great :D
current song : I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

HAHAHAHA! See that? I remember the I'm Yours lyrics. Why? Last night went so hard, like every single day, me and him fought! jeez, then as you know or everybody know, the result used to be broke up. Puh-leaseee! For the many many and many times. Maybe the PUTUS-NYAMBUNG is the right way to describe it.

Today, I'm watching REVA's (the man whom I'm talking about) band practicing for the upcoming band audition for MPK (Malam Pergelaran Kesenian - is it right? heee).
Well, they play so damn good! I'm supporting them! Not only because its Reva's but from their skill. Two thumbs up and more. They not like an ordinary band who sang the hardcore genre. They play smooth! Actually, it's jazz and I ♥ jazz.

For now, maybe my relationship status is 'complicated' but I'm guarantee that I still stick onto one gentlemen. I'm a lil' bit extraordinary in this thing! HAHAHA

♥
ANIES

You're the One that I want

2009-05-05T06:00:00.001-07:00

Hello blogger! hihi ;)
it's almost one month that I didn't writting blog. By the way, let me share my whole stories (2 days lately)!

* current mood : up and down up and down up and down
* current song : TERUSKANLAH - Agnes Monica

That was what I want to share!
' pernahkah kau bicara? Tapi tak didengar.. ' yaaa etc, didn't remember the whole lyrics!
Yeaaah, I ♥ that song so much. It's like describing my feelings 'up and down' rite now!
D'you know how its comes? Not sure, but surely this 2 days lately, I WAS CRIED LIKE A BABY! poor me, my spoiled-brat-acted has comes then he walk away from me!
I don't know why he was so mean? Let me cried out loud like a toodler!
I make it a lil bit confused, the point is ' I MISS HIM SO MUCH '
I want to meet him
I want to hug him
I want to kiss him

I'm crying, begging for his kindness, but he didn't even heard me!

I want him to visits me, but he wont!

Still patient still patient. But my patience and my brain did'nt work in the same way. I lost my patience then I screamed and cried like a SPOILED-PRINCESS!
But he didn't care. He stick in his way.

It's so hurting me. For many times, he gimme his promises but he didn't do the promises he made.

I'm hurt. I'm pain.

And I said the effin' word.
'I want you break up with me' with tears and screamed. Firstly he aggreed, he told me that he doesn't know what must he do for me. He tired with my attitude who always made him angry.

I'm so glad he agree with mine, but my other side is CRYING! blahhh I hate this situations. That night, my not yet ex, called me. He asked me about my 'breaking up thingy'. I replied, 'sure, I'm serious'. His sounds dissaticfied, he asked me, 'I dont want to broke up with you. We're still going out and went steady'

OK! I agree, besides, I still loved him so much! Then my sleep went so relief. But my sister said that in the morning, my face looked so tired. My sister never sees me like that, she told me that she didn't want to waking me up wether I asked her.

Then the next day, the mess comes again. Alright, alright. Pass! I already forgive him. It's enough for me to crying crying and crying. But it can't stopped my tears fell down. I cried and I screamed. It means, the-breaking-up-thingy comes again. I said that effin words twice. Alright! But he didn't agree this time, he said that 'he still in love with me'

for many times, i can not resist his charm!

I love you, yesterday, today, tommorow and forever.

♥
ANIES

Filling my 'me time'

2009-04-16T06:17:00.000-07:00

Helloooooo!

Long time no writting blog! And here I am try to write down. Geez, the harry potter will showing @ ten pm @ hbo, damn it i can't see it! The indovision makes me furious!

Yeay, talking about harry potter, I'm just can't waiting any longer for the upcoming the half blood prince! It would be the 2009's world wide box office!
In my country, the harry potter always showing on 2 theater or more.
By the way, I'm being twitter-addict!
All of you, follow my twitter!

♥,
ANIES

Because I'm worth it..

2009-04-09T06:16:00.001-07:00

Suddenly, my feelings feel annoyed. Dunno why and by whom. But I'm surely known that it's caused by someone who called my boyfriend. I've realize that I'm not the one he want. For info, I'm his third girlfriend. For me, he's second.

Speaking about worthy thing, I'm pretty sure that he sees me! But, can you imagine that someone who loved you most always rejectic your phone? Always hang on his phone? Otherwise, he know that he's still on phone with you! Is that hurt?
When he put off the phone, is he really sees us?
Come on, I'm so sure that he's wasting me!

Furiously,
A

the rainy day!

2009-04-05T03:20:00.001-07:00

Some people say, "rainy day is romantic!"
yeah, I'm totally agree with some people. I feel that too, my romantic emotion comes when its rain. What I love from the rainy day is the athmosphere. The athmosphere makes me want to relaxing all day. The cloudy grey sky, all thing from the rainy day makes me loves its.
Wearing coats, trousers, jackets or sweaters, boots and absolutely umbrellas. Some people doesn't like the rainy day. But have you realize? Rainy day could pump up your spirit and relaxing yourself wether you don't try to relaxing yourself. That's why I love the rainy day.
If I must choose one between rain or snow, I would rather choose snow for any reasons.

1. I haven't trying live in the snowy country
2. Snow is purely white and its looks like a cottons.
3. The weather is surely cold and freezing
4. I want to meet Yeti
5. Snowman, snowangel, snowball, etc.

In my thought, snow is more romantic than rain, so far.
Everything covered up by white. That's what I love. I love the snowy day since I watch a film which is the scenery is winter season and its so romantic. Serendipity, for sure!

♥,
Anies

The sun will shine if the morning comes

2009-04-04T08:46:00.001-07:00

helloo, blogger!
saturday, april 4th 2009, 22:28

current activities : on the phone with my boyfriend
current moods : indiscribeable
current songs : love story - Taylor Swift

Great escapes! Saturday night only writting blog, such a geek rite? but, dont care and dont want to care. I've used to care someone and more, they doesnt thinking and realize what I'm doing. so for what?
You know it sounds pathetic, but for all reason I doing this is to make some people back to their deserve's way.
And you all know, 'the sun wont shine if the morning doesnt comes'
that words really really describing my self right now! It seems I'm too sad and poor, hellooo! see the athmosphere!

Talking with my boyfriend via phone is like my habit, i cant meet him so i called him. only counting days, we will have our very first anniversary! i want to celebrate it together. But i think it wont happens. my plans now only a dreams. No break up, he's sick. he got fever! soo, thanks, my plans are ruined!

Second, I missed my GranMa so much! I want to meet her and if i could, i wanna live with her! she meant everything for me. my granma teach me anything, anything to respect ourlives. From the way she talk and her body language i loved her! I heart her more than i hearth myself, i want to take care of her. My only GranMa, i ♥ you so much!

xoxo, anies ;)

Celebrity Crush : ZAC EFRON!

2009-04-02T06:00:00.000-07:00

BREATH OF FRESH AIR: To shoot our coverboy, Teen Vogue trekked out to Montauk, New York, with some special guests in tow: thirteen kids from the Fresh Air Fund, a nonprofit organization in Manhattan that sends inner-city children to summer camp and getaways with host families. They couldn't wait to spend a day dancing with one of their biggest idols. And as a lasting memento? Zac gave personal autographs to each of them!

HIS FAVORITE THINGS: The actor loves the movie 21, the iconic film star Marlon Brando, and preppy rockers Vampire Weekend.

ZAC, ON THE PAPPARAZZI: "I'm really surprised they care..."

ZAC, ON HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 "The stakes are higher because there are real decisions to be made. What college are you going to? What happens to the girl? It's fun watching Troy grown into a man."

ZAC, ON 17 AGAIN "It was hard to play someone I couldn't relate to in the slightest, but the director taught me a lot about the art of acting, which I hadn't been schooled in before. I've got a better understanding of what it means to be an actor now."

ZAC, ON FAME: "You don't realize until it's gone, but it is so important to feel normal. I'm not going to complain. It's something I've learned to cope with."

Taken From: Teen Vogue

Gossip Girl : Remains of the J

2009-04-02T05:26:00.000-07:00

HELOOOOO!

This nite, i'll gossiping about gossip girl's latest episode: Remains of the J!
maybe everyone knows about it! I'll add some pics from the CW! enjoyyy :)
and you all can visit GG's official blog!

Blair Waldorf's looks adorable in the black outfits.
Blair and Nate looks so cute! What a perfect couple!

By the way, in Remains of the J episode, Nate and Blair gettin' back together! and surprising, Chuck and Vanessa having s** in the end of the episode!

ANIES, smooch!

Starting

2009-04-02T03:07:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOO!!

Welcome to my blog, everyone! blog yang saya buat ini, tidak hanya untuk diri saya sendiri, tapi untuk semua orang yang membacanya. kebetulan memang hobby saya menulis, saya akan memposting apa yang sedang terjadi saat ini! thanksss :)

cheers, ANIES, smooch!